Hi everyone!!!
I really did not want to write an email this week but my mother is begging me too so here we are!!!!
This week was still really really hard. I can't truthfully say that I'm happy here but I'm trying everyday to be and that's what counts.
Here's a little bit about my week!
We had a couple lessons this week that went well and our friend Tay is still on date for baptism which is awesome!! We also had a service activity this week to help a member -who can't really walk- clean out her aparment. We walked in with a couple other members from our ward and this aparment was absolutely disgusting. Like bless this ladies heart because its not her fault but I was shocked. It was like the biggest mess ever. She has 2 little dogs but she can't really take care of them so there was poop and pee EVERYWHERE. Anyways so we had our work cut out for us but we got it done and I started chatting it up with this lady and she was so so kind and that made it all worth it. So ya that was fun! The people here are so intetesting. They all have like werid reindeer statues in their yards or oddly large easter basket lookin things and they all LOVE Jesus! They can also just talk and talk and talk. Like we spent an hour on this man's front porch while he told us his whole life story. People will really just tell you anything, its kinda crazy but i love it!
For my little spiritual thought today I wanted to share something from my personal study this week:
There is a line in Moroni chapter 8 verse 16 that reads "for perfect love casteth out all fear" this line really stuck out to me because I feel like I'm filled with fear from time to time. But when we learn to accept God and Jesus Christ's perfect love that fear begins to be cast away. When we learn to understand that love conquers all, then we start to realize that we will be ok no matter how scary the path may be. We will be faced with uncertainty in this life, thats a given, but we can be certain that their perfect love is constant and never failing. It's just up to us to have faith in it, let out guards down, and let that perfect love consume us. I feel like sometimes we see fear and faith as polar opposites. While that is mostly true, I think fear is a stepping stone and a driving force for faith. Fear makes us realize that we need Heavenly father and Jesus Christ. Fear helps us grow and learn to turn towards the light. But because of them that uncomfortable feeling of fear does not have to last. It can be so beautifully replaced by the most perfect forms of love.
Like I said last week, it is so hard to have the faith that the fear will be cast away. I know I feel like I'm drowning in anxiety, depression, expectations etc. right now and all of those things terrify me. But that fear is my driving force to hope for something better. I don't want to be stuck here and I know because of God and Jesus Christ's perfect love, I won't be. It will definitely take time and I have no clue what the future holds, but I do know that love will fill the space where fear once was.
I love you all and I hope every single one of you has a magical week
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