The Lord's Power

Hi everyone!! So much has happened since I last sent out an email so let me catch you up!! Transfers happened!!! My new comp is Sister Crawley and I love her so so much!!!! I've only known her for like 5 days and she's already one of my favorite people ever! I'm out of training and I got transferred to Lexington which is SO MUCH FUN I LOVE IT HERE! 

I wanted to say thank you to everyone who has prayed and fasted for me. All I can really say is that I am so so SO grateful. I was in a desperate need of a mircale and a change and by all of your guys faith and by the grace of God, I got it. I'm gonna sound so dramtic when I say this but it's like a weight has been lifted and I can breath again, and I have hope again that things are going to continue to get better. I haven't felt this much hope and this close to who I really am in literally months. And again it may sound so dramatic but at the same time, its so real. And that is not to say that the depression and anxiety are all of the sudden magically gone but I don't feel as trapped anymore. So that is just so wonderful!! 

GUYS I HAVE A BARNES AND NOBLE IN MY AREA!!!! YAY!!! we do weekly planning there and it is literally the best thing ever! I would live in Barnes and Noble if I could tbh 

I'm so happy to be in Lexington and to have a fresh start. In confrence (also side note... confrence was literally amazing) Elder Kearon talked about new beginnings and I feel really good about this new beginning. I will always have a place in my heart for my first 2 transfers because even though they were so difficult, they taught me so much and because of that, I have a greater appreciation for where I am now. 

Yesterday during Sacrament meeting I was flipping through my Book of Mormon and I kept coming back to Ether chapter 3. There are so many things that I love about this chapter but I'm gonna share something that always sticks out to me when I read it.

In this chapter, the brother of Jared is asking the Lord to grant light to 16 small stones to accompany them on their journey. The brother of Jared is pleading with the Lord and is acknowledging his power and in verse 5 he says, in part: "we know that thou art able to show forth great power, which looks small unto the understanding of men." I love this becasue I think sometimes we get caught up in what "power" really means. We think of superheros from our favorite stories and the "powers" that they have; teleportation, super strength, invisiblity, x-ray vision, flying, etc. the list could go on and on. When comparing that power to the Lord's power, sometimes the Lord's will look small to the understanding of men. But in reality the Lord's power is so much greater, it may not look epic to the human eye, but it resonates in our eternal souls. The Lord has the power to open a mind, heal a broken heart, and fill a soul with peace. Those things are not easy to do on our own, but with the Lord's help, those are the things that are life changing. I know that because I have seen it. He heals my broken heart everyday, even on the days that I may question if he is really there. I know that he can and will do the same for all of you because that is what he has promised. 

I know people probably want to hear some crazy missionary stories and believe me i have started quite the collection, but I'm just gonna have to leave you on a cliff hanger because... i can't really remember what happened this week 🤷‍♀️ Buttt next week I'll flip back through my journals and share some good ones!! #pinkypromise 

LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH

HAVE A MAGICAL WEEK 🤸‍♀️🕺✨️