God Knows

HELLO EVERYONE!!!! I hope you all had a very happy Halloween!!! And also how the freak is it November?!?! That is crazy!!! Soooo basically Merry Christmas!!!! 

This week has been pretty good! We had a couple really good lessons and we are also conquering our fears of public finding in stores. It is sooooo awkward but that is ok. And luckily for us the Lord is magnifying our efforts because we get someone's number every time!!!! And let me tell ya Hobby Lobby is literally the promised land for finding people to teach!! 

Today we had p-day with our district and all the sisters got there early so we had a dance party in the parking lot and it was literally so much fun!!! And fret not the water wars are still going strong. Every companionship has a water gun now hahaha 

We had another lesson with Dwayne this week and he is just the best!! He has a whole new perspective on life now because he is allowing the atonement to work in his life and it is so cool to watch. He LOVES exploring the gospel library app and he said one of his favorite things he's read is Jacob 5 and I was like "that's one of my very favorite chapters!!!!" So we got to talk about it which made me so happy. We talked about the symbolism in that chapter and how it doesn't matter where we are planted because God is going to nourish us all the same. He wants us all to prosper and come home. For some it takes a little longer to get there than others, but it's not a race or a competition. We get there when we get there and God has a way of making everything work out for our good. Then Dwayne was like "I'm starting to see that now and as I look back, I'm seeing that He was there all along" and I was like awwww!!!! I feel very lucky that I get to have these experiences.

I've had the song "My Heavenly Father Loves Me" stuck in my head all week. Specifically the second verse: "He gave me my eyes that I might see the color of butterfly wings. He gave me my ears that I might hear the magical sound of things. He gave me my life, my mind, my heart, I thank him rev’rently For all his creations, of which I’m a part. Yes, I know Heav’nly Father loves me." 

Then in my study I came across Alma 18:32 which reads "And Ammon said: Yea, and He [God] looketh down upon all the children of men; and he knows all the thoughts and intents of the heart; for by His hand were they all created from the beginning."

God has given me my life, my mind, and my heart. There are times that I don't know how to describe what I am feeling and what is wrong. Sometimes finding the right words feels impossible. But it brings me so much peace knowing that God knows what I can't explain. He knows my heart and mind because He created them. He created me. Sometimes I feel betrayed by my anxious mind and heart, but this song and scripture remind me that they are a gift from God. It is ok to feel lost and off sometimes and to not know why. Just please always remember that you are a child of very loving heavenly father 💗

LOVE YOU ALL